As BETEO's resident lurking psychiatrist I may as well throw my hat into this ring too. It would be unprofessional for me to comment on what other doctors may have said (because they know you and I don't), but the advice below can be thought of as some of my generic advice on depression:
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With the depression-I was told to take 6 months off, I did not.
Probably the better choice - removing the stress of work can be useful if that's a major contribution to the depression, but if being off work will be even more stressful (and if money is a worry, this is almost certain to be the case) then staying in work (as long as you can function reasonably well) is likely to be the better move.
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So I'm going to the doctors who will give me some tablets most likely
If he suggests the same tablets, I'd request something different. Feeling 'zombified' is rare, but it does happen and usually won't with another class of drug. Some GPs fail to realise that people don't often fail to take/stop drugs for no reason, and that it's almost always that it doesn't agree with you. We used to categorise this sort of depression as 'reactive', or as a reaction to more stress than a person can reasonably handle. Antidepressants may take the edge off some of the anxiety, but the real 'treatment' is trying to sort out the problems in life. Talking therapies might help in the longer term, but I'd focus your efforts on trying to deal with these very real problems. I could quite some monumentally tedious research linking the body's response to stress to the abnormalities in brain chemistry that give rise to depressive symptoms, but the short version is that with all this going on in your life, as long as the depression isn't completely incapacitating you (which is the point at which antidepressants tend to take over as the treatment of choice) then medication is, at best, only a small part of the solution.
The CAB can be very helpful - I'm not of the legal persuasion, but it seems like someone is taking liberties with your rights, and if that is the case then it should be stopped if at all possible.
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it also keeps doing this 'twitchy' thing in the lid of it.
Stress. Many people get that too. Especially doctors when patients come in with a list of things wrong with them...
Sorry. I couldn't resist that.
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Why did mother have to create the Uber-Emo?
It's a secret conspiracy to shift the mountain of unsold My Chemical Romance albums. But don't mention that I told you.
Seriously, I hope things work out - it's alarming how easy it is to endup in a mess like this. I've seen people come through far worse though. Just concentrate on fixing one thing at a time as far as you're able, and don't be afraid to tell people (family especially) that you need some time away from dealing with others' problems - making yourself worse by taking on too much won't help anyone.
Good luck